August 29, 2007

don't hate me because I'm thin

There. I said it. Yes, I'm thin, I admit it. Although I prefer the term slender. Why is it that people continually tell me, "You're too skinny!" Why is this ok? I don't go around telling people, "You're too fat!" Make sense? I don't choose to be this way. I actually don't do a damn thing, which probably makes people hate me even more. It's just the way it is. I'm still waiting for it to "catch up to me" as my mom always said it would. I actually apologized to someone at work one day for being thin. I sometimes get those comments, "How do you stay so damn skinny?" delivered with an "I hate you" glare. I swear I'm not anorexic. I do eat. In fact, I pretty much graze all night long while I'm at work. Because I'm not eating dairy, I've actually lost about 10 pounds and now weigh what I did in high school. (Which sucks, I swear, because I'm having a hard time finding pants to fit.) Once I start dairy again, I'm sure I will gain it back. I've come to think of it like this, everyone's body has a predetermined size it's meant to be. It's beyond our control. So anyway, I'm sure I sound completely whiny to you while you shake your head and sarcastically say, "Poor Emily." But I just wanted to get that off my chest.

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